Be careful what you wish for...

It seems like we have pushed so much of the excitement, emotion and preparation for having a child to the backs of our minds when the process in China came to (almost) a grinding halt. Now that things are starting to speed up again, I'm suddenly in a panic. We could get a referral in September, and I don't feel ready! Of course, I understand that most people don't really feel ready to be parents, and I also know that we will get ready. The nursery is still a guest room, and all the baby clothes not in storage are now the wrong season (back when we were young and foolish, we thought we would be bringing our daughter home this summer). Nothing is baby-proofed, and my pre-China to do list is a mile long. Oh, and there's a minor thing called daycare to resolve. Sigh... I do know that it will work out, and that we will not only survive, but hopefully parent quite respectably. This heart pounding panic is completely normal. Right? Right?!